Surface Mapping

November 30, 2023.Reading time 1 minute.

Reality fractures into two copies of itself and I decide to decisively seize the moment and go with the version of me who’s bold but cowardly, curious too, curious enough to see what it feels like at the center of a dying star.

collapse acceptance theory

November 28, 2023.Reading time 1 minute.

Paradigm

November 21, 2023.Reading time less than 1 minute.

It seems my guise of sanity
had a paradigm shift
all on its own

Tú Sed: Affectionate Cruelty

November 19, 2023.Reading time 2 minutes.

I fell in love with his hands first, then his mind, then his body, which is ironic because he was prone to posting sexy selfies, these tantalizingly revealing images, sometimes captioned with his erotic yearnings. His body was nice and all, but my favorite post of his was one with the hands.

Molasses

November 18, 2023.Reading time 1 minute.

Wear your mask for the masses. I want to know more about your madness—the things that bring you to your knees/make you struggle to breathe

Fleeting Feeling

November 16, 2023.Reading time less than 1 minute.

I’m feeling restless again, not anchorless, but anchored to the wrong thing maybe. Maybe.

Blah

November 16, 2023.Reading time 2 minutes.

There is this moment right before you ascend into air where you have to choose between panic and surrender. Right now, I’m not sure if I should panic or surrender.

peak

November 14, 2023.Reading time less than 1 minute.

Satisfaction

November 12, 2023.Reading time 3 minutes.

I got on top of him and moved slowly to take him inside.

Endlessly

November 10, 2023.Reading time 1 minute.

One night I was in the gym, lost in sensation as usual. Stripped out of my formal attire, dressed in some booty hugging leggings and a black tank top with skeleton fingers over my titties as if they were being grabbed/held.

Rumble

November 7, 2023.Reading time less than 1 minute.

Wanting what I shouldn’t

November 5, 2023.Reading time 3 minutes.

I can’t help wanting what I shouldn’t…

Cadence

November 2, 2023.Reading time less than 1 minute.

After Hours: Undone

November 1, 2023.Reading time 1 minute.

He wore loafers without socks or with super low profile socks one day.

Displayed

October 31, 2023.Reading time 2 minutes.

Believe it or not, I’m a really shy person.

Poetry of Place

October 25, 2023.Reading time 2 minutes.

My place smells of guava and lavender and it’s got me thinking about some of the best parts of my childhood. Memories I’d long since forgotten, memories embedded in my embodied body that I finally felt connected enough to tap into.

Tú Sed

October 22, 2023.Reading time 7 minutes.

And after all this build up, the mutual world building, the fantasies of what’s to come, it’s a bit frightening to have you here in person. What if fantasy and reality just don’t collide? I accept that as one possible outcome, and I realize there could be many other outcomes.

Picture Perfect

October 21, 2023.Reading time less than 1 minute.

Presence

October 17, 2023.Reading time less than 1 minute.

War

October 16, 2023.Reading time 1 minute.

My entire being is consumed by thoughts of war and the costs of war.

Style Bender

October 15, 2023.Reading time 5 minutes.

“I am out with lanterns, looking for myself.”
—Emily Dickinson

Only for Me

October 11, 2023.Reading time 1 minute.

Today I complimented her outfit.

Timepiece

September 27, 2023.Reading time less than 1 minute.

I’m never
only
ever

Read

September 20, 2023.Reading time less than 1 minute.

Would you like to read with me?
Read with me in the room?
Read with me next to you in the bed?

Crush

September 15, 2023.Reading time 1 minute.

“I promise passion, nothing more,” I said, wrapping my legs around him.

Fall Forward

September 13, 2023.Reading time 1 minute.

I’ve been working hard, but my soul isn’t fully nourished unless I’m creating.

After Hours: Vibrations

September 10, 2023.Reading time 1 minute.

He held my gaze as Jay moved a massage gun across his upper back and shoulders. The look on his face, the way his eyes glazed over, the way he softened and smiled… I wanna see that look more often. I like that look. All relaxed and welcoming.

equilibrium

September 8, 2023.Reading time less than 1 minute.

you’re touching
me, calloused
firm fingers

Toe Cleavage

September 7, 2023.Reading time 2 minutes.

I didn’t mean to spend the money, but I saw some pretty sparkly dangly curtain of crystals and lights and I wondered if I could touch, I wanted to touch it, so I did, I reached a scrawny hand toward it and, to my surprise, my fingers passed through, and I felt it, I felt the gorgeous purple shoe.

The Energy

September 2, 2023.Reading time 3 minutes.

The competition aspect of my new gig is nuts. This morning in hot-seat was a fierce Hunger Games style battle. Despite being new, I went up against someone who is very well spoken, smooth, charismatic, and seasoned. I’d noticed him before and admired his style.