It was such a beautiful night. We sat outside by the water, the ocean breeze cooling my nerves.

He looks at me with more than desire. I got the sense he really wanted to know me, which is exactly what I wanted, but it made me uncomfortable. Unsure. Insecure maybe. Like wow, I can really have this? I didn’t really expect to get what I wanted so now what? I kind of wanted to run away, cover my face, cover all of me. I felt exposed. Unprepared to have what I actually wanted.

I couldn’t help it, I broke eye contact and looked away. Over to the dock with pretty hanging lights. It was such a beautiful night.