
Author: Staggered Desires




Fall Forward
I’ve been working hard, but my soul isn’t fully nourished unless I’m creating.
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After Hours: Vibrations
He held my gaze as Jay moved a massage gun across his upper back and shoulders. The look on his face, the way his eyes glazed over, the way he softened and smiled… I wanna see that look more often. I like that look. All relaxed and welcoming.
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equilibrium
you’re touching
me, calloused
firm fingers

Toe Cleavage
I didn’t mean to spend the money, but I saw some pretty sparkly dangly curtain of crystals and lights and I wondered if I could touch, I wanted to touch it, so I did, I reached a scrawny hand toward it and, to my surprise, my fingers passed through, and I felt it, I felt the gorgeous purple shoe.
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The Energy
The competition aspect of my new gig is nuts. This morning in hot-seat was a fierce Hunger Games style battle. Despite being new, I went up against someone who is very well spoken, smooth, charismatic, and seasoned. I’d noticed him before and admired his style.
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desired effect
simple, effective
solo predicaments

Self Driving Human
Author’s Note——I left my old position around this time last year, so I wanted to do a little update here. I’ve also re-published the original “I quit” story which I’d previously deleted for whatever reason.Read More

Bad Date/Good Night
Dating and being with people confuses me sometimes. Maybe I was just confused because there wasn’t a good connection. Yeah, that, that’s it. That’s why I found myself locked in a cage so I could get away from my date.
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Kick, Push
Today I am filled with gratitude and awe. My bad knee is allowing me to do more and more and I could literally cry tears of joy (okay, okay, I did cry a little, lol) for how far my body has come.
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Source Material
You ever find yourself sitting in a seminar where your mind gets to churning and you start to think, This sounds too good to be true, in fact… it feels a little cult-y. These people wanna know my why and I’m not sharing. My why is for me, I don’t owe anyone my life story.
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After Hours: Headshots
I wanted to show my neck and pretty gold earring. He said I should have my curls on each side because it would be more feminine.
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Colorful murals cover buildings on call street
There are ideas I’m not fully aware of
Things I feel lurking in the shadows
Waiting to be acknowledged
Waiting to be named



The State of My Rope
The last two times I let people tie me weren’t that enjoyable. In fact, the more I’m tied by people the more I realize I don’t actually like being tied by people.
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After Hours
We were alone in the conference room one night. It was a long day, but he called me out earlier for not attending evening training… even though I was doing leaps and bounds better than everyone who attends evening trainings.
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In Defense of Distractions
Puffing smoke in the company of estranged family members.
It’s surreal. I’m freeing myself


A Beautiful Night
It was such a beautiful night. We sat outside by the water, the ocean breeze cooling my nerves.
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Back to Basics
Going back to basics, but sometimes basics are the most complex.
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The Eroticization of Suffering, Vol 2
Read MoreFrom forehead on the mat to tip toe balancing, I was transfixed by the sight of her beautiful suffering.

The Eroticization of Suffering, Vol 1
“Does it hurt?” is by far the most common question I get regarding my Shibari practice.
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Do it scared
I’m feeling alive again
The behavior is proof